The Oil Fields Fade In the Distance: My Winter Break

So much can happen in one month, one break. My emotions have been on a constant roller coaster. Love, Pain, Joy, Sadness, Rejection, Reconciliation, Heartbreak. I cant say I have enjoyed my break but Christmas was the best Christmas in years. I feel I have a better grasp of who I am and I'm glad for that. I learned that if someone wanted to hurt me I'm an easy target. I give up my secrets easily, I don't ever think I'm good enough. Yet I have found Christ and in him I know I can be a broken sinner and can be a servant to God. The battle against smoking is a long and hard one. Its hard because my love of smoking is equal or greater then the desire to quit. Its hard to explain this to nonsmokers or even the some smokers. To me the smoke has been a way to break free from stress, a method of prayer even. I at times will walk around outside with my pipe freeing my mind to God and enjoying his creation. So giving it up is giving up positives and negatives. This break has seen evenings filled with laughter, tears, heart break, cigarettes and booze. I don't think I would change a thing. I have learned a lot, hurt a lot. I'm glad its all most over.

Bring a Torch, Jeanette, Isabella

Christmas Day
The Christ Child is born
Today has been the best Christmas in years
I realized my family means the world to me
I did not really want anything for Christmas but I got what I need
Some clothes to replace the stuff thats not fitting right, and some boots (the docs)
But most importantly Love from my Family and Friends
I know who cares and you mean the world to me.
Cant Wait Till New Years

Kindom Ethics

Discerning Gods will is tough. Its one of the hardest things in the whole world.
I makes a human who is sinful by nature and requires him to put aside there wants and desires and makes them think outside there boundaries and let randomness take over.
This randomness isn't really random humans only think it is this way.
A friend said this too me and it got me thinking this is the message he left me
Seems like you're workin' against some pretty hard stuff right now, broseph. Remember what I said tonight about the way we respond to the call of God. Just like Jesus, it's alright to be afraid and scared (and terrified!) of what is to come in the future, but if we walk on a pathway laid by the Father, fear has no place. I will pray for you. - E.T.
Right now I'm again in a place where I'm not sure of Gods call and really have been afraid of it but thats ok Im being like Jesus in being scared I'm definitely not in as scary a situation but this is a turning point in my life. Doing Gods will and Gods will is an idea called The Kingdom of God or Basileia tou Theou in Greek. The problem is most humans don't understand this is not a physical kingdom or nation but rather its a idea its a set of ethics that are generally counter cultural and what I call the third way usually a debate has two sides most of the time God makes his own option. Just another thought of mine.

"God has spoken the rest is commentary right?"-Rev. Rob Bell

Credo in unum Deum Credo in quae Credo

or I believe in One God, I believe What I believe
Everyone believes something this is what i believe. I wanna hear where you agree and disagree and what you believe in whole


I believe in One God Yahweh Almighty
Creator, Author, Perfecter, Poet of Ground and Sky
I believe in Yeshoua the Messiah the only Son of God
Who in his very Nature is both fully God yet fully Human
Conceived in the flesh by the Virgin Mary by the power of the Holy Spirit
Sent to Earth to usher in the return of Eden.
In so restoring The Kingdom of God.
In order to do so Gods only Son lived a perfect life,
Was forced to die the Death of A Murderer
He was hung on a cross in order to fulfill the scripture,
In doing so he defeated Death and the power of the Devil.
Upon Death he Descended to Sheol
To tell The Dead the Good news
On the third day he left sheol and ascended to Earth
To pour out the holy spirit on all who believe
He then ascended into Heaven where He is seated at Gods right hand
Interceding for all of humanity until the day he comes again
To restore perfect Justice and finally restore Heaven to Earth
I believe in One Holy Church
made up of many denominations in many locations
Whose job is to restore Heaven to Earth
One random act of kindness at a time
I Believe In One God Who Is Three
Father, Son ,Holy Sprit
Three in One, One in Three
This is What I Believe

BOSSA NOVA INDIE ROCK EXPLOSION

So today a friend of mind told be about too indie rock bands the first being Vampire Weekend who describe there sound as Punk / New Wave / Classical there sound is similar to The Shins with a classical twist there sound is quite impressive. The Next Band is the one that really stands out Nouvelle Vague Nouvelle Vague is a band from France that does 1960's style bossa nova covers of 80's Punk Rock and New Wave songs. Check out there cover of too dunk to fuck by the dead kennedys it will totally blow your mind. There Influences Include the following and the diversity in there Influences really shows
POST PUNK BANDS: Joy Division, the Cure, Human League...
60's BOSSA NOVA: Jobim, Sergio Mendes, Gilberto...
60's & 70's JAZZ: Miles Davis, Hancock, Art Ensemble of Chicago, Don Cherry...
AVANT GARDE ARTISTS: Luc Ferrari, Parmegiani, Stockhausen, Xenakis, Cage...
SOUNDTRACKS COMPOSERS: J Barry, F. de Roubaix, Shiffrin, Morricone, Lgrand, Roy Budd...
FANTASTIC FEMALE SINGERS: Julie London, Dusty Springfield, Nancy Sinatra, Bobby Gentry...
AND Jamaican Roots Music, Mento, Ska, Rocksteady, Dub
Electronica, Autechre, Jackson, Matmos, Curtis Road...

Gravity Rides Everythings

Today was relatively uneventful. I saw my family, got some food at chilies and watched Accepted as far as main stream movies goes it was pretty good. I noticed again a trend with modern movies incorporating underground concepts or ideas, music, and art into there films. Modest Mouse's song Gravity Rides Everything was featured along with a poster of a European rock band who at the time of writing this i cant remember. Also behind the films front as a teenage comedy it is really about alternative education and the imperfections in the college system. I feel the church needs to embrace this idea and not make everything good have the "Christian" title cant something be good with out saying Jesus 10 times. Another thought that keeps me on the verge of insanity

Dailyish Blog One

Today I came back to school. Started Pre-recording a song I wrote. I'm reviewing my life now and trying to use the Reform, Reclaim, Renew stuff to make my life better Im working on self improvement so I can better serve the Kingdom.

This is the first of many daily or so blogs in my life